2024 need to be different

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 hi. i'm here again. 

sometimes i just wonder? what i want for 2024? what i want to achieve? what need to be done? 


let me list the things i want from the past that did not happen yet.hurmmmm

  1. vlogging ( i do but i am so lazy to editing)
  2. affiliate marketing
  3. belajar berenang (hello i bought baju renang already okay)
  4. reading books
Actually all i want is to be productive, yeahhh. hurmm some story need to keep it here is: aku pegi hiking. lol i never thought yang aku akan mendaki gunung. i never hiking before. walhal hiking bukit pun tak pernah. tut tut naik gunung. fuhhh. what a incredible job little girl. 

i met new friends. then i realize that i shouldn't be happy for a new people. they might came and go as usual. hurmm. like i will not a have a bestfriends sepanjang hidup aku. Hiking was a perfect memory, i love the moment aku berada di puncak. how caring i be to people. then, yeah im still feeling direspect. hugs and kiss from myself to me. 

Then, when thinking about 4flat journey. i just want to highlight here that i can get it actually. there are nothing impossible if i want it. just need to study the same way as i study time F6 dulu.  Sometimes aku rasa nak jadi true readers. Not just saying i love books. But i want to read academic article. I want to know how to make an article, research n else. i just want to be truly educated. I also want to buy new books, poetry book :( then i am out of money for sure. 

My income is not enough to fulfil my needs. Then i planning to do extra part time job. but yeah, i hope its not just cakap kosong. how i wish i can get Rm1k per month. at least haft of it i can keep it for future. then half of it i can used to fulfil my nafsu dunia hahahahaha. 

Then i realized, that i tak buat pun azam 2024. let's catch up now: huahahahha

hmm what i want from this year?  

  1.  save another **k for my ** hahahahahahaha where to get that money babygirl
  2. get level 2 of green belt. that sounds so crazy
  3. boleh berenang basic
  4. hmmm another *g for ** (im crayinggg where to get money)
  5. nahh i want new cloth, sebab its important.  i want to change my looks lol
  6. not skip sunscreen 
  7. write more poem: my target to 100 before 2024 end
  8. keep healthy
  9. learn mandarin
  10. get 4 flat for sem4 as its is sem 4
  11. keep update for my mom
  12. edit video + post it
  13. try affiliate
  14. hargai orang around me
  15. reading more than scrooling
  16. be the best version of myself
banyak-banyak bukan tercapai ponnn. nahh i am bertekad tahun ni. 

btw, cepat betul masa berlalu, dan 1 februari dah. rasanya haritu baru tulis journal 1 januari. 

ps: write this nonesense thought on laptop. that why berterabur sikit huruf besar & kecil. 


let's go catch dream babygirl 

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